So my baby is sick. not just sick but really sick. I dont think i have ever been brought to tears so quick in my life like i did when he stopped breathing last night. He is my world and means so much to me and i dont know how to make him feel better. as a parent that is the worst feeling in the world, to know that your baby is sick and needs help but you cant help them. There is so much mucous in his little lungs and chest and nose that nothing and i mean nothing seems to make him feel better. With every fiber of my being i wish that i could help him feel better. The worst part is i got him sick. I tried so hard no to but i guess when your his mommy there isnt much you can do. i cant put myself in a big bubble and not touch him like he is a disease. although i guess im the one with a disease. not a nasty one im just sick. but the point remains that i feel like the worst mom in the world because i got him so sick he cant hardly breath. i have tried everything from nasal salline to steam to pedialyte and none of it is working. nothing seems to be helping my little muchkin and oh my goodness i cant stand it anymore. i cant stand to listen to him weeze or cough or cry anymore. it breaks my heart for him to do any of it. I am going to call the pediatrician today and see what he has to say. I mean his temperature has went back to normal. so im not worried about his temperature just about the mucous build up in his lungs. on another note though. my wedding was called off. the groom decided he wanted an actual wedding.... i wasnt to enthusiastic mostly because i know that we wont ever have the money for a wedding