Free Write - 8/23/12

Staying up all night is really tiring. I know that William has to sleep because he gets up at 3am everyday but i have to get up too! i mean come on now. i have to sleep too. most nights i only get about 2 hours of sleep and i dont know why. i  really think that maybe he might be either teething or maybe he is getting sick or something. normally when he came home he would sleep through the whole night and i would have to wake him up to feed him. although maybe i shouldnt have done that but he needed to eat. this is my first child and i didnt and still dont know everything there is to do about things but now i cant get him to sleep. and it has only been in the last like 2 weeks he has done this. i thought at first he just wasnt being full but i know that that has happened alot lately. the poor guy cant get full so i started him on baby rice. that seemed to help alot and now he just eats more and more. in two and a hlaf months he has gained about 6 pounds which is great because he only weighed 5.8 when he was born. mostly just because my placenta was 95% dead when he was born. they had to take him 2 weeks early because if i would have waited any longer he wouldnt be alive today. but back to the point. the point is i cant stand it when william compalins of having 4 hours of sleep just because he cant when i cant go to sleep if i wanted too. its so frustrating when you do everything for everyone and noone can have any concideration for you or anything that you feeel and want to do. this is me just venting. its just so annoying to never get anything.